Insomnia?

Not that serious la.

but i hav been sleeping later and later recently.. ever since sch started.
it's like i feel exhausted alrd but i cant get myself to sleep even tho i have been lying on the bed for hours. guess there r too much activities going on in my brain system that doesnt want to take a break.

like now, after writing the previous post, i feel emo again and it sorta ignite the sparks to start the brain engine running, sending me lotsa emotions from the lost images, but still captured in my memory. altogether it's the misses, tt stop me from getting to bed early.

stupid emotions, i want to forget!!!!!!!

as tho it's in the routine, i feel tt it's time to force myself to lie on the bed and struggle to fight against emotions so that i could get my beauty slp......

i hope i cld fall asleep almost immediately this time..

cant get u off my head

I miss u so..



I wanna see u, but on the other hand I'm so afraid to meet u.



I played the scenes so often in my head; I should have stop doing so but I just cant control myself.



I kept thinking of u,



but i bet u must be living ur life w/o my image haunting ur soul.....



.......... which i should have done so. ):

SKINNY IS NOT PRETTY

attended poly gathering last sat @ east coast n the 1st thing my classmates told me is,

i'm getting skinnier!!!!

WTH! :( :( T_T

yea it's not like i didnt noticed tt myself. but it jus hurts me to hav somebody telling me e fact. i want my baby fats back!!!

i looked thru photos which were taken in the past, hmm ard 3 to 4 years back? and i compared the phtos taken now.. i looked so much skinnier, older, and uglier!!! GOSH!!!! u can see the evolution @ e pics below:

this was taken when i was 18 yrs old! chubby face!!

hmm this was taken when i was 19? i rmb is poly yr 2.

taken @ ann's 20th bdae.

my 21st bdae. face sharper! loss of fats on my cheeks!

when i entered CPF

now 22 yrs old. chin sharper, face skinnier and longer. UGGHHH!!!

SOBS. as if this is not bad enough, my face complexion worsens too. guess it's probably when i start applying products on my face wanting to make it better but fffffff, what i got is the opposite effect! grrrrrr.......

so yeah, i'm pretty upset about it even tho some of u here do not see the point, cos u might be thinking being skinny is a gd thing, BUT for me it is NOT.
NOT!


I WAN TO GAIN FATS!!!!!!!!!