you shldn't be THE benchmark

some lovely dessert i baked..

my second attempt baking brownies.. and this is the best i'd ever made! i used the same recipe as before, only that this time i bake with the assistance of the electric mixer, so i guessed the electric mixer helps? i'm so surprised that after a few days, it remains crusty on the surface and still taste as great. yums ♥

my hols is coming to an end, and i've done/achieve nothing much during my hols (no work cos my boss said he got nothing for me to do, cant have fun bcos i'm broke). what a pathetic period i had, but at least i spent more time with my mummy. i'd done some reflection on myself during these days too - well u'd do that if u're spending time alone - and i realized it's so wrong of me to have somebody set as benchmark and view it on other people. it's wrong and unfair.. 1st, it would look like as if i'm still not over it (in fact, i alrd have). 2nd, it would seem like as though i'm looking for a replacement (GOSH). 3rd, not everyone is the same; comparison is out of line. another point is, i should NOT limit myself with that benchmark, and i'm trying hard not to do that. agree?

sch's starting tm.. and i'm dreading it!

disappointed

some friends just make u dissapointed most of the times.
when i rmb how much i did for them in the past, and not getting it reciprocated back to me, i just feel like for fuck i fork out and give in so much to them.
mayb we shldnt be too calculative in friendships and relationships, but i feel tt it's not worth if ppl start to take you for granted.

a word of advise for myself: i shld stop being too nice to people bcos fuck, some people come to you when they need you and they'll just throw you aside when they dont need you anymore.
WE'RE NOT AN OBJECT, WE'RE HUMAN.