tomorrow

preparing for my trip tomorrow....

my luggage too small. ARGHHH!!!

I WILL MISS SINGAPORE FOR A MONTH!! i will miss my bffs too. and my family. :( homesick ahh!!

And I'm Guilty

What's the point of going to a desirous foreign country, when you know that ur parents struggled and strived so hard to make it happen for you??

i'm so angry. so angry with myself that i had to let this happen. i'm so sad, sad that i'm going there when instead i think they're the ones who most deserve the trip. and i'm guilty, cos i can feel their heartpain as they give their portion of hard earned money to me so that i can enjoy.

the more i typed, i more i cant control my tears.
suddenly, i just dont feel like going anymore.

Pinky Pink

HEY YO!!!

i've finished learning the dance steps from jolin's mtv. BUT excludes learning the ending part which i find it difficult to learn with the extreme twisting of ur arms. ouch!

thn at ann's hse, she taught me basic steps of salsa. i like too!! and i heard frm her that thr's social night whr the salsa dancers are gathered to dance tgt, and well i guess frm the name, socialize ard. kinda cool, eh?

she helped me paint my fingers too!! :)))

I asked her to draw this one. haha. EWWww. my thumb has a lot of deadskins closeup. ugly!

and, on top of tt, we baked apple crumble!

wad can i say? MAMA MIA!!! will bake it myself next time!!

I know I love dancing

蔡依林 Jolin Tsai- 美人计

i'm learning the dance in this mtv now. haha i'm too free!! plus i like her dance moves inside. Vogueing!!! all the complicated hands movements. i missed dancing :( def will attend lessons once i'm available!!

had stopped dancing ever since i graduated in sec sch, and before that my life is always about dancing. because of this interest, i neglected my studies and my grandma kinda disapprove me spending most of my time dancing, instead of studying. now tt i've stopped dancing, i can only enjoy the times when i go to the dance floor and rock it. even dancing on the dance flr cldnt satisfy my crave to work my body out (esp when i'm drunk/tipsy/high) when i'm not clubbing, i confessed that often i found myself either daydreaming that i'm attending dance performances or practicing some dance moves at home. sigh. i really cannot live my life w/o listening to music and dancing!!!!

i've decided. once i'm available, i want to learn vogueing, street jazz or salsa. time to find someone to join me!!!

FLAT BROKE

i feel so pathetic and miserable ever as i look at my account summary; i've nv been so poor in my life. and yet, thr are so many things tt i didnt have and need (not want) to buy that are in unaffordable range, which most people wld even think it's affordable to them. i feel like crying.

the rate of money going out is so much faster and easier than it going in. i guess most wld, no doubt, agree with this. i've been randomly working, so far the salary tt i earned is only enough for my daily expenses. the amount of my pocket money helps far less than my earnings, what can i do? i rather depend on myself.

just days ago my fren agreed to lend some money to me, and i feel so grateful to him. i didnt know that i wld need to borrow some money until i'm left with no alternatives. thank u god, now i got more debt to clear. i forseen myself walking on a long long path filled with thorns prickling me until the debt is paid off. i'm prepared for more sufferings to come.

on a brighter note, at least i've experienced how being poor is like. when i begin to earn a real income, i'll keep this lesson in mind from spending extravagantly in future.


p.s. to friends, i'm super sensitive now. pls DONT ever complain to my face tt u're broke/poor becos i believe u're nv as broke/poor as me and go check the dictionary for these words in case u dont undst wad they really mean.

Mind your words, Watch your mouth

but u cant control that, isnt it? tt's other ppl's mouth which they can say whatever they want to. and instead of telling and reminding them, i give up and bite my lips shut. however, i wonder what i shld do in future in the long run.

what goes around comes around, your action directly reflects on your criticism on others before. it's so zzzzz. oh wells, at least i know abt whom now.

SIM Bash Party @ supperclub

YES. i know i'm not a SIM student. and YES, i shld be doing assignmt at home but OH WELLS, with the invitation (frm sueann) in my face and of my creeping temptation to take a break from studying, i dont mind partying and have some fun! OH u know i cant resist to be part of the FUN..

so here goes the night last saturday:

the clique

pool of alcohol shaun threw up (nt vomit)

the drunkards



i was wearing flats and the whole club is so crowded that throughout the entire night, my feet got trodded by alot of ppl esp girls with heels. THAT, inclusive sueann's heels. oh my god...... GODDAMN PAIN LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sobs. at one point i really felt like throwing my temper and jus walk out of the club. well, luckily i didnt. cos i think if i throw my temper ppl will jus think tt i'm high/tipsy/drunk. zzzz. 

presenting you my feet, with all the bruises and dirt:

sigh... mayb i wont wear flats to club anymore...