Accusations

looks my thoughtfulness was not appreciated, it was neglected and perceived as a foolhardy decision that causes e whole family havoc.

i thought i had been doing the right thing all along. it was against my principle to ask money from parents, and i dont like the feeling of doing so. i fed on myself if possible, unless i'm by the stress of financially exhausted, i ask for pocket money from them. i have been working for a yr before, but that doesnt mean i can support myself yet since i spent so much on some fees (educational n medical) and spending from my account feels like squeezing out on what's left there. even though i'm allowed to ask for pocket money, i nv ask for it only thn my father will hand the money to me when he rmbs it. and since i know that our family were nt v wealthy and had a lot of debts to settle, i feel so abash if i rch out my hand for money.

that leads to why i spent my 1000k to 2000k from my savings to do something important w/o informing my father, and thn now tt i told him i gt reprimanded for being unthoughtful and hot-headed.

my permission was granted frm my mother when she told me that she will not help me to pay for it since she has alrd settle for my sch fees. that i understand, and so i volunteer to fix this myself. i didnt want to bother my father and add on his burden, so i didnt tell him anything at all. little did i know that the fees to pay r more to come, that i'm resorted to ask the money from parents.

smthg to pay for health medical fees r unavoidable. as much as i dont wana pay, i still must bear the expenses.

now, am i wrong in this?!

somehow i dunno why, things that i did out of goodwill only turns out to be wrongdoings deemed by my parents, and i'm to be blamed for it.

and somehow i dont understand y some ppl r effortlessly filthy rich.



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