tomorrow

preparing for my trip tomorrow....

my luggage too small. ARGHHH!!!

I WILL MISS SINGAPORE FOR A MONTH!! i will miss my bffs too. and my family. :( homesick ahh!!

And I'm Guilty

What's the point of going to a desirous foreign country, when you know that ur parents struggled and strived so hard to make it happen for you??

i'm so angry. so angry with myself that i had to let this happen. i'm so sad, sad that i'm going there when instead i think they're the ones who most deserve the trip. and i'm guilty, cos i can feel their heartpain as they give their portion of hard earned money to me so that i can enjoy.

the more i typed, i more i cant control my tears.
suddenly, i just dont feel like going anymore.

Pinky Pink

HEY YO!!!

i've finished learning the dance steps from jolin's mtv. BUT excludes learning the ending part which i find it difficult to learn with the extreme twisting of ur arms. ouch!

thn at ann's hse, she taught me basic steps of salsa. i like too!! and i heard frm her that thr's social night whr the salsa dancers are gathered to dance tgt, and well i guess frm the name, socialize ard. kinda cool, eh?

she helped me paint my fingers too!! :)))

I asked her to draw this one. haha. EWWww. my thumb has a lot of deadskins closeup. ugly!

and, on top of tt, we baked apple crumble!

wad can i say? MAMA MIA!!! will bake it myself next time!!

I know I love dancing

蔡依林 Jolin Tsai- 美人计

i'm learning the dance in this mtv now. haha i'm too free!! plus i like her dance moves inside. Vogueing!!! all the complicated hands movements. i missed dancing :( def will attend lessons once i'm available!!

had stopped dancing ever since i graduated in sec sch, and before that my life is always about dancing. because of this interest, i neglected my studies and my grandma kinda disapprove me spending most of my time dancing, instead of studying. now tt i've stopped dancing, i can only enjoy the times when i go to the dance floor and rock it. even dancing on the dance flr cldnt satisfy my crave to work my body out (esp when i'm drunk/tipsy/high) when i'm not clubbing, i confessed that often i found myself either daydreaming that i'm attending dance performances or practicing some dance moves at home. sigh. i really cannot live my life w/o listening to music and dancing!!!!

i've decided. once i'm available, i want to learn vogueing, street jazz or salsa. time to find someone to join me!!!

FLAT BROKE

i feel so pathetic and miserable ever as i look at my account summary; i've nv been so poor in my life. and yet, thr are so many things tt i didnt have and need (not want) to buy that are in unaffordable range, which most people wld even think it's affordable to them. i feel like crying.

the rate of money going out is so much faster and easier than it going in. i guess most wld, no doubt, agree with this. i've been randomly working, so far the salary tt i earned is only enough for my daily expenses. the amount of my pocket money helps far less than my earnings, what can i do? i rather depend on myself.

just days ago my fren agreed to lend some money to me, and i feel so grateful to him. i didnt know that i wld need to borrow some money until i'm left with no alternatives. thank u god, now i got more debt to clear. i forseen myself walking on a long long path filled with thorns prickling me until the debt is paid off. i'm prepared for more sufferings to come.

on a brighter note, at least i've experienced how being poor is like. when i begin to earn a real income, i'll keep this lesson in mind from spending extravagantly in future.


p.s. to friends, i'm super sensitive now. pls DONT ever complain to my face tt u're broke/poor becos i believe u're nv as broke/poor as me and go check the dictionary for these words in case u dont undst wad they really mean.

Mind your words, Watch your mouth

but u cant control that, isnt it? tt's other ppl's mouth which they can say whatever they want to. and instead of telling and reminding them, i give up and bite my lips shut. however, i wonder what i shld do in future in the long run.

what goes around comes around, your action directly reflects on your criticism on others before. it's so zzzzz. oh wells, at least i know abt whom now.

SIM Bash Party @ supperclub

YES. i know i'm not a SIM student. and YES, i shld be doing assignmt at home but OH WELLS, with the invitation (frm sueann) in my face and of my creeping temptation to take a break from studying, i dont mind partying and have some fun! OH u know i cant resist to be part of the FUN..

so here goes the night last saturday:

the clique

pool of alcohol shaun threw up (nt vomit)

the drunkards



i was wearing flats and the whole club is so crowded that throughout the entire night, my feet got trodded by alot of ppl esp girls with heels. THAT, inclusive sueann's heels. oh my god...... GODDAMN PAIN LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sobs. at one point i really felt like throwing my temper and jus walk out of the club. well, luckily i didnt. cos i think if i throw my temper ppl will jus think tt i'm high/tipsy/drunk. zzzz. 

presenting you my feet, with all the bruises and dirt:

sigh... mayb i wont wear flats to club anymore...

Rene Furterer Shampoo for Thinning Hair

i wonder how many ppl i know has the same problem as me?

it all started like this. i started to have insomnia a few months ago, and my diet hasnt been very healthy. i didnt exercise alot too, and when i exercise, i swim, which is bad for my hair. so thn i noticed that my hair dropped more than usual, and it has continued for weeks. it didnt help tt i feel so depress, even now, that the stress accumulates. my scalp itch and is flaky too, and my hair stylist told me that i've been using the wrong shampoo. THERE. tt's one major source for unhealthy scalp. he even told me something which i think i ought to share with u guys:

1) shampoo is for your scalp, not for the hair. especially in such a weather in singapore, u gotta pick the right shampoo for ur scalp. he also mentioned that conditioner is for your hair, so yep, this is the concept.


2) there r 4 major brands of shampoo in s'pore which do all the extensive advertisements you can see on TV. Dove, Pantene, Silkpro and..... i forgot haha. i think is sunsilk. these are the brands he condemned as the content of these shampoos are not suitable to use under s'pore's humid weather. adds humidity to ur hair, he says. before i hear this, however, my dad alrd told me not to "believe" in advertisements, becos only poor-selling products need to do advertisements, which is very true. it is like famous eateries donnid to promote how delicious their food is becos their reputation is alrd established.

and.. what else? i forgot. stm la. so anws ppl, PICK ur choice of SHAMPOO carefully!!! (btw above is his opinion, NOT MINE!)

ok, so after hearing what he said and undst the condition of my scalp, i was DESPERATE to get new shampoo that suits me. i went online to search for it and after looking at the reviews, i bought this:

Rene Furterer Shampoo for Thinning Hair

can u see the beady green particles inside? i always like to squeeze em when i'm washing my hair haha

yep! my honest opinions are: doesnt help much on preventing hair loss, but it did makes my hair looks healtheir and itchiness and flaky no more!!! =D however, i wont continue to use this shampoo la. doesnt sound as gd as i saw frm e reviews. AND its so ex for such a small bottle -_-

hope this entry helps a lil for friends who have thinning hair like me!! ;)

RE: to zhiyi

WEBSITE FOR THE BROWNIE RECIPE:

http://happyhomebaking.blogspot.com/2007/07/fun-with-chocolates.html

haha. i oso dunno if she'll look into my blog not. cldnt paste this website to my tagboard so i had to create this post specially for her. anyone who's interested in baking nice brownies could look into this website too!! ;)

Oh United States of America!

hello peeps! i hope u have get used to my infrequent updates of my blog now. hehe. hard to kick off the habit of being lazy!!!

one more month to USA.
and so many things and so much $$ to prepare!!!

for those of u who still havent heard abt it, i'm going thr to complete my studies and am gonna graduate thr as well. the state i'll be gg is Oklahoma. nv heard of it? so do i, haha. actl, i rather not go thr and spend all these unnecessary money. i mean, why cant we just complete our studies here?? tsk...

did my VISA (approved alrd) and bought my air tix. the major matters are settled, left with the nitty gritty things to be done, like eg shopping for winter stuff!!!! boy.. i'll be officially broke after i come back frm US, this is so worrying. OH scrap tt, i'm alrd very broke even before i'm gg over to US. alot envy me for it, but if u think abt the money tt i spilled over and owe, mayb they'd like to reconsider it. few of my frens had been very nice to offer me help on the money issues, but i rejected them. oh wells, i'm alrd on debt, so i guess the more i shldnt borrow frm frens. but i'm glad they offered. loves!

have tried to borrow whatever winter stuff i can borrow. feel so sad tt i cldnt choose wad to wear for my trip but heck man, this is not up for me to choose!!! think shilei think! u're alrd fortunate to have ppl lending you clothes so that u wont spend tt extra $!

i wana thank my neighbor yiting for lending her sweaters to me. weee!!! and my dad's fren too, for the down jacket. if u guys have any winter stuff tt u dont mind lending to me, pls lemme know ok!!! i'll be immensely grateful to u :))))

on a brighter note, i'm gonna experience alot of first times in my life!!
for my first time in my life i gotta meet snow in real life!!! lol. not in my dreams, not on the screen, but SNOW, right in front of my eyes, feeling it melting right on my fingers and lastly, playing snowball fight!!!

for the first time of my life, i'm gonna spend a traditional xmas!! not like celebrating xmas in sg, counting down with the spray of fake snow with thousands of ppl in the city, and then attending xmas parties. i'm gonna have a family xmas dinner (not w my family tho, with my fren's family who's kind enough to provide us a stay after our sch's over) and i hope thr's turkey and a real xmas tree standing in the room haha. thn we'll gonna exchange presents :)) doesnt sounds exciting but cos i've nv had a traditional xmas (with snow and all tt) before, i kind of like the idea and am looking forward to it!

for the first time of my life, i'll be spending my days with my frens at such a faraway country for such a long period!! gosh. i cldnt imagine tt!!!

for the first time of my life, i'll be leaving my family to live by myself for a mth.. i'm so gonna get HOMESICK!!! i think i'll cry thr lol. oh dear, i need to be strong!!!

for the first time of my life, i'll be living under harsh weather. for the N times of my life, i wish i have fats in me. tt cant be help. i must wear thick thick jackets!!!!



sigh a mth more... will ur miss me?? haha

you shldn't be THE benchmark

some lovely dessert i baked..

my second attempt baking brownies.. and this is the best i'd ever made! i used the same recipe as before, only that this time i bake with the assistance of the electric mixer, so i guessed the electric mixer helps? i'm so surprised that after a few days, it remains crusty on the surface and still taste as great. yums ♥

my hols is coming to an end, and i've done/achieve nothing much during my hols (no work cos my boss said he got nothing for me to do, cant have fun bcos i'm broke). what a pathetic period i had, but at least i spent more time with my mummy. i'd done some reflection on myself during these days too - well u'd do that if u're spending time alone - and i realized it's so wrong of me to have somebody set as benchmark and view it on other people. it's wrong and unfair.. 1st, it would look like as if i'm still not over it (in fact, i alrd have). 2nd, it would seem like as though i'm looking for a replacement (GOSH). 3rd, not everyone is the same; comparison is out of line. another point is, i should NOT limit myself with that benchmark, and i'm trying hard not to do that. agree?

sch's starting tm.. and i'm dreading it!

disappointed

some friends just make u dissapointed most of the times.
when i rmb how much i did for them in the past, and not getting it reciprocated back to me, i just feel like for fuck i fork out and give in so much to them.
mayb we shldnt be too calculative in friendships and relationships, but i feel tt it's not worth if ppl start to take you for granted.

a word of advise for myself: i shld stop being too nice to people bcos fuck, some people come to you when they need you and they'll just throw you aside when they dont need you anymore.
WE'RE NOT AN OBJECT, WE'RE HUMAN.

Weakling!!!

i was sick for a week!
A WEEK!!!!

suffered from almost every illness u can think of: fever, flu, cough, stomach flu, sore throat, headache.
throughout that week i didnt dare to go out at all; seemed to myself that i locked myself up at home for good bcos one, i could save money if i didnt go out at all (broke as usual) and two, i take my time to rest since i'm having my hols and i got no work to commit. but it felt so terrible. ugh. what's worse u get emotionally unstable when u're feeling badly sick... dunno if any of u felt this way before??

AND my birthday is coming. i dunno what to do!!!!! i'm so broke that i didnt know how to organise the celebration.... cos everything u do in sg is so ex :((( if u party, u nd to have e $$$. ARGHH. tell me what should i do??

why so emotional?

weekdays are meant for work and studies, and saturdays are intended for friends and dates.
sundays is the only day in the week when i can have all the time for myself.
but on a rare occasion during sundays, i feel so depressed and emotional..... like today.

it happened too sudden that i got caught up with this temperamental disease bcos nothing upsetting has happened to me at all. so unexpected, but i'm glad that it occurs during a sunday.. bcos i know how i wld behave in front of people with a mood like this.

i shut myself in e room for most of the time in the day watching Glee, and i dont feel like talking to anybody - not my mum, not my friends. and each exhaled breath feels like a silent scream.
it happened before, but that was during those depressing periods. and it's def not pms, i know it myself. then why????


girls....................................... or issit just me?

Despicable Me

Here i am again!!!
this simply shows how free i am now. HAHA!

for those people who have yet to watch despicable me.. WATCH IT!! it's hilarious and cute!!! i'm deeply in love with the yellow creatures now. SO EFFING ADORABLE LA! the way they talk, behave and their expressions. omg. if thr's a figuring i wld buy em!! best if they have it in bolsters, i'll feel so happy hugging them to sleep!!! hahahaha. (tt's how crazy my crush for them) =P

hehehehe!! they look dumb la.. but i just find it cute!

anws, assignments are successfully cancelled!!! so yahooooooo~ here comes my holidays! =D

along these 9988776 days

blahblahblah...
it's been like 9988776 days since i updated my blog. i know i know... but i've been either very busy or very lazy!!! haha

bcos of the prolonged period of the emptiness of e blog, i'm in a lost of whr to start for the fresh entry. let's just start with the most recent updates!

sat, 2 weeks ago - ann asked me to join her colleagues for laserquest at CDANS! i still rmb vividly the 1st time i went there. it was i think 2 years ago? when i just joined CPF and they had these inter-department activities. since i was newbie, i decided to be proactive! but i didnt really fare well back then, i suck at aiming at the enemies and suck at defending myself as well!!

but it was a nice game tt day!! even tho i dunno most of her colleagues thr, but they're fun! and we're the top team yo! got the highest score of shooting at other teams! dont play play hor! the game ended off with a small fumble: i freaking fell down and injured myself!! the other team members got freaked out but i was fine la, didnt cry or made a fuss and i continued playing!! haha.

the bruises after the clumsy fell down:

look!! i even got a heart-shape look alike bruise! lmao

terribly painful when i wash them with water. and the pain last for weeks!! arghhh. results of wearing non-friction covered shoes la!

in return, i invited sueann along to the event of the re-opening of cafe del mar! i bet we're suppose to have an enjoyable time there but bcos we rch thr way too late, free flow drinks and food is over and so are the other entertainments such as tattoos and tarot reading! wad a pity la!

:)))))

saw rozz and shan wee from 98.7fm thr too. SHAN WEE IS SO CUTE!!!!!!! omg. so tall and stunning eyes. wee-weet~ wonder is he's attached now?? haha... i wonder onli ok.. WONDER. and rozz still look as cool.

went to sing k after tt at peace center. CHEAP! shall go thr again!

sat, 3 weeks ago- zouk with stef and joel's friends. crazy night!

if u guys notice my fb status, tt was the night where the guys have some issue with the bouncers thr. hate the bouncers at zouk!!!

anws, jus in case u're wondering y i have the time n mood to blog... its becos now i'm having my study break and i MIGHT have nothing to do for the rest of the break till the next module starts!!! we're given a chance to vote against the assignments, cool! lets hope majority of my classmate vote against so that we can abolish the assignmts!! weeee!!!!



dont hope for my next update soon...haha
i'll try ok!

toothache

and how i wish a tooth fairy could save me from this torment......
but *SNAP. this is reality. only a dentist and spending huge amt of money could get me outta it.

i'm very exhausted as i'm writing this, but i jus feel like writing it out before i go to bed. these few days have a torture tt u can nv imagine, nor did i imagine tt it cld be sooooooo painful too. the pain frm the toothache, i dont really even know how to describe it. all i can say is, it caused me to suffer from throbbing headaches every now n then, it makes me lose my appetite, it makes me moody, and i dont feel like talking to anyone at all. every of my energy is drained to focus the pain that i feel so weak and tired. i even feel like skipping classes cos i could hardly concentrate. the feeling jus sucks to the core!

but i'm so glad and thankful that my fren is willing to listen to my countless complaints.. gave my advices.. consoled me and all tt. really. i cldnt believe that i'm so lucky to have her around. that's to you, Jesslyn dear. i understand that sometimes it could be a nuisance to have to listen to all these.. but she has been patient enough :) and i hope that she's willing to share her problems w me too, even though i dont give gd advices.... but i'm a good listener :)

ok i'm really am gonna turn in early now. will continue again.. gd nites ppl!

rawr!

the chiongsters r unleashed, again.

a lot of ppl named me "clubber" bcos i club a lot but do u realised one thing? clubber initates clubbing, but i dont. i club only if friends invited me along. and for the times where thr's no invitations, i can survive without clubbing for months. so........ yeah, i dont think i'm a clubber lo!

been back to clubbing almost every wk now, well cos sueann's frens invited me. oh again i must emphasize, i hardly have any friends who club frequently. haha. anws, her friends invited me again next wed and sat to club, i hope there arent any more to come bcos i'm so so broke. and for my clubber bff sueann, bet u can see tt this party animal is unleashed again! RAWR!

so looking forward to 18th of May. come baby come.. lemme embrace u in my arms!!!!






dont be so curious about my baby.
he's jus e amt i anticipate in my acc.
lol

give me a sign.

my face looks like shit now. LIKE SHIT!

went for facial just now ard my area and i cld feel the tears welling up in my eyes every now and then as the aunty used EVERYstrength in effort to squeeze out the dirt frm the pores. in the midst of e session i cldnt bear it any more, i whimpered in agony but the aunty pressed on, saying that it's for my own good. right. but wtf, i really felt like running away frm the beauty salon, leaving my belongings behind. finally the whole thing was over, and i survived e whole torment of prickling pain and excruciating pinching of my face.

but my face looks like crap now!!! *CRIES*
all the reddish obvious blotches on my skin and the swellings.. FUGLY! dont scream if u happened to c me one day, i'd shuff my fist into ur mouth haha!

sian. the condition of my skin now makes me more depressed, after when things happened.
i guess i'd have to be myself, i dunno why the fuck do i have to pretend at all.
but i have to curb myself a bit too, sigh so contradicting.
give me sign.

Why am I single?

This question was asked by my poly friend after my best friend got attached, though his actual question was:

"When will it be your turn?"

now that, is a question asked many times by ppl around me. my ans is, i dunno, for 1st thing 1st, i dont have any guy i really like now, and for the guys out there who like me or liked me before, i just couldnt be in a relationship which i know sooner or later i will hurt you.
cos i know how is it like to be hurt. cos i dont wana repeat the same mistake again.
not tt difficult to get what i mean rite.

a lot of people have been telling me that i have high expectations. . . . . . eh-hem, serioussssssssly i dont feel so myself. i just want to be w a guy whom i feel so comfortable with, who can make me happy (this is v impt cos laughing is like a daily supplement of ecstasy to me, i couldnt live without it!), who is mature and understandable..... alright i'm not gonna fill in the details of my expectations of my ideal bf. as you can see, what i ask for is generally what all girls would ask for what. as for appearance wise...... i do have my expectations but, i'm gonna be defensive about it, do YOU expect me to ACCEPT any guys - short, skinny, fat, stinky, or hairy - to be my bf? (i dont mean to offend anyone k) so stop telling me tt i have high expectations! tsk.

what about those guys who i liked, what are the outcomes of it? yeah, i'm just like those little girls who stand at one corner, peeking at e boys they like, who wouldnt dare to express their affection to them. 暗恋 is the word. i'm just too proud and shy to show them that i like em (..alright, face it shilei, u're a coward too..) some girls would flirt or express interest to the guys they like, but i'm not. in fact, i'm quite the opposite bcos i dont want tt guy to know that i like him; i would appear to be nonchalant abt his existence and would treat him indifferently but damn, my affection for him deep inside my heart is so intense than u can imagine!

i guess that's y guys tt i like are never really close with me, given my attitude to them. i mean, even if they do like me, they would also feel intimidated by my behavior that they wouldnt dare to approach me right!

but i'm trying to change alrd. i know i'm too prideful, but there are some things that are worth to put ur pride aside.. nevertheless, darn it, there's still a limit to give into it ok!! bleah

on top of that... i'm also too afraid of failures. there are times i took up courage and give it a shot but, i would withdraw at the critical last second, which at the edge i can only see the last of it. then, i feel the regrets sinking in, but it's alrd too late. what can i do?
i can only hope that the next one is better...


here, i have explained my singlehood, and i also want to declare that i am NOT gonna be attached until i find someone who i really love and vice-versa and when the situation allows (i'm fcuking broke now, i have enough troubles coming from money). dont ask me anymore on this topic, it's said n done here.

"Being single used to mean that nobody wanted you. Now it means you're pretty sexy and you're taking your time deciding how you want your life to be and who you want to spend it with."

- Sex and the City  
=)=)=)

Oprah Winfrey's View on Men

i'm too bored at work so i decided to blog on this, which i came across in my my inbox. interesting to read it time and again becos i find it so true!!

Oprah's View on Men, here it goes:

 If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.

If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.


Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.

Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.

Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.

Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.

You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.

Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

Never let a man define who you are.

Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.

A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

All men are NOT dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is two way street.

You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cuteabout baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals. Look for someone complimentary, not supplementary.

Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.

Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.

Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Pink Volkswagen Beetle

I was taking a ride home in the bus one night and when it stopped at the traffic junction, i saw this pink beetle beside it....................................

oh my effing god.... SO PRETTY RITE???????? and it's in baby pink!

i wanan own this kinda car in future. like... qte a far future away zzz. but actually i like a lot of cars, like lexus (dunno wad model) and mercz (also dunno wad model) and benz. haha! but 1st i need to have driving license la! 

Simple Saturday

No extravagent programs.
No squeezing thru' the crowd at town.
No huge bunch of friends.

just a simple saturday with a close fren (and neighbor) spent, chilling and hanging around at less populated areas :)
and it was great.

sometimes we just need to slow down our pace on weekends, rather than bustling around AGAIN since tt's what we do on weekdays.. esp those of whom are working full time. occasionally i'd love to spend my day away outta town (too bad i cant drive), i.e. secluded places of sg or explore ard sg. tt's y i kept emphasizing to ting that if only i have driving license and i own a car! sadly, tt's not gonna happen so soon :(

and so it's also a day filled w good food. nothing luxurious.. after lunch we headed down to clark quay and i suggested to go to the Japanese market - Meidi-ya - at the Liang Court! WOOOOTS. i LOVE jap food. love love love. from their tid-bits, their snacks, the alcohol (which is well, the CHOYA hees), their meals, to their desserts, except their beer. Japanese are sooooooo fortunate.. envy la. it's not my 1st time to medi-ya, but i'm still very fascinated by the wide range of stuff they sell. both of us were like awed every now n then, all the "WAHs" and the "OMGs"; ting said every 3 steps she took she had to stop and turn back to me as i wowed at the food thr HAHA. i was fascinated by the tid-bits and snacks while ting was fascinated by the low-calory food thr haha. wah, by the look of it, in comparison i'm so unhealthy!

spotted their signboard for delivery.. so convenient!! it is for customers to purchase cartons of drinks or maybe like a big quantity of food (i guess so la) to be delivered to their doorsteps so tt they cld save e trouble to carry them home themselves. budden also abit unecessary for s'pore markets, cos they're all located in e neighborhoods.. unless u're preparing to take refuge la.

at the end of e day i cldnt resist the temptation and bought soba and rice crackers home! hehe. ting bought nothing at all (i think her weak spot is beauty products, while mine is food). or issit tt she's left penniless? haha. i cldnt wait to tear off the packet of rice crackers and nom on them.. which i did. i think i pratically chomp it almost too eagerly =X

Photos of the day =D

KOI bubble tea!! oh mine is peach green tea with their grassjellies (ting's reccomendation) I LIKE!!! u guys shld try the grassjelly instead of the zhen zhu. it's really nice!!!

chilling by the riverside

clark quay looks great during daytime too. v colorful

check this out. they have BK bar now?!?!

foooood!

the instant soup

still on the soup. ting likes it that they display the amount of calories clearly on the package!

they have INSTANT CLAMS too! omg!

the clams inside!

i wish i cld buy this crabbie home

cute packaging for sweets! i would devour u!!!

tryna capture the beautiful sunset.. but my cam too lousy la GAHHH.

adorable cat we stumbled into while walking back hm!! CUTE!

:)

love at first sight

have you ever met a stranger, standing close to you, and when u look up and your eyes meet with his/hers, you blushed and could feel your heart beats faster than you can imagine?
thn you would feel very self-conscious about yourself, and would constantly check whether he/she is still around?
that you wouldnt dare to look into his/her face again, bcos you were shy or too afraid of revealing your feelings?

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what if the person you were checking with, is constantly checking on you too?? would you regret letting him/her passed by, without another look at him/her again?

Prudential Sucks!

Crap!!
i thought i could earn like near to a hundred bucks when my fren recommended me this events job for 3 days, which now the salary reduced to half of what i expected because i quitted halfway through doing it!

well, it started out w a fren of mine recommending me this job with pay of $8/hr. i agreed to take up this job immediately and called the person-in-charge for more details. upon the brief rundown of the job details through the phone, my heart sank a bit because the company we're to work for is PRUDENTIAL. damn, i know how most ppl feel towards prudential the same way i feel towards it but... it's jus a 3-days work with a not-bad pay isn't it? the job scope is to approach ppl and get their details (tis is so brief) and i asked the person if there's any target to hit. ok, this is the WHAT the issue is about. he said he dont think so. thn i felt better and so i took up this job, and even recommended my frens to join me.

on the actual day of briefing however, the information was too much for us to take. we're to visit local unis and promote their new-launched management associate programme to the graduates there, and get interested parties to fill in their details. the condition of the pay is, we need to get 60 ppl per day to get $8/hr, otherwise 30 ppl per day to get $6/hr pay, or i think it'll be no pay at all. i felt deceived, but still i agreed to work somehow. nevertheless, i feel tt it's impossible to get so many ppl to listen to us on this goddamn prudential programme, esp when it leaves such bad impression to ppl.

on the 1st day of work, i only managed to get 30 ppl (and i didnt even promote anything about prudential; we just tell these ppl tt it's a survey) a lot of which contains fake contacts. on the 2nd day we gave up and called to terminate contract, but we managed to finish 2nd day of work when the person hinted us to complete tt day's work and tt we might get our pay. i even dialled my frens up to obtain both their and their friends' particulars to achieve 30 ppl, when the person actually emphasized on getting interested parties instead. haha.. WHO CARES????? given prudential's bad reputation, it so hard to be motivated to practically promote their programme lorhs... and ppl dont even want to hear anything tt's related to it. SEE LA? tsk!!

i hope we will still get paid for these 2 days work lorh. if not i would really feel cheated when e person told us we will get paid by forcing ourselves to complete the work!
and i would never ever work for prudential again! pui!

such an irony

OH.
i just realized how ironic it is when i wrote about the previous post after the stress factor post. lols.
but i do feel better now tt i wrote it out it and also complained to my friends...
Thanks for listening and consoling me, suggesting ideas too. :)

when everything just caves in

MDIS Bachelor of Arts, Degree in Mass communications of Oklahoma University
is such a money sucker.

how much more have i yet to pay? how long can i last with the limiting finances??

1stly i fret over the school fees, which is the main factor that is suffocating my whole family. this huge amount of fees do nothing but creates arguments, anxiety, stress, distress, poorness, and tears.
....... a lot of times i wonder in order for myself to further my studies, is it worthwhile? was it a wrong decision after all to be in this course, to pay for what's more than we can afford? i've thrown it all away to study; i quitted my job and gave up the carefree life which i dont have to worry about money. i didnt realize how huge the impact will be and how much hardship i'll be suffering, until days after my classes began. i have walked this far, but yet i feel myself becoming weaker and more jaded while i walk down, so powerless against the strain of the burden.

2ndly, which is the secondary concern, is about my residency trip to oklahoma at end of this yr. this, is not subsidised by school and we have to fork out our own $ to pay for e air tix, the living expenses accomodations and all. AND it's not included in the sch fees. so it's like we are paying extra for it. thanks to it, i have more burdens now
--> no, i dont feel like borrowing e $$ frm my parents yet again. no, i cant afford it myself.
then how else am i gonna raise e $$ myself??!?!!

unless i tio 4d or toto. unless i sell my body for it (ERK, this is so cheap! NO I WONT DO TT, no worries) or unless i engage in some illegal activities. and unless i opt for a loan.

then.............. it dawned to me that, it's true u cannot do without money, true that it's difficult to resist it's temptation, true that with money, almost everything is possible to achieve, and true that money is the one of the most important assets in the world.

when i was younger, i rmb how shallow and materialistic i felt to those ppl were to think like this.

now i know. now i understand.
and now i become one of them..

Stress Factors

............. guess what?
after i studied sooooooo much for the exam the prof decided to select only like 2 chapters out of 8 chapters and the exam paper only comsists of TWO frigging questions. yeah. i thought i were seeing wrongly, and i re-read the whole paper again. anws, it's just a piece of exam paper, so yeah.. i couldnt be wrong about it! TSK. (but the paper was easy la.... heh...)

anw, rmb i said i will share my prof's website here? unfortunately... the website i copied down is wrong. thn i tried googling it but i just cant find it. oh well.... mayb i'll ask from my frens to see if they copied it down too. if not.. thn just forget it la.

however, i got 1 website here tt's quite interesting. it's inside my textbook and it helps to calculate your stress score in regards to your stress level. Want to know how stress you are and how it affects ur health conidtion? Check this out to determine your stress levels! http://www.stresstips.com/lifeevents.htm

the last time in lectures i calculated mine with a longer lists of stress events than e website provides given by our prof.. and my test scores are 400 and over, which means my life is undergoing a major transition and i'm feeling stressed out over it. mind you, that score is the highest and most severe one that leads to stress-related disorders which are very problematic. OMG... mayb tt explains why i'm getting skinnier?

this time i calculated my stress scores at this above website and i got a completely opposing results:

Your score is 102
According to the Holmes & Rahe* statistical prediction model your score means a relatively low amount of life change and a low susceptability (about 30% probability) to stress-related illness. However please keep in mind that there are many variables that interact on health including positive factors such as support from family, friends or work associates.

GEE. mayb it's cos the lists are not long enough? cos i feel that in each individual's life there are so many and different life events that is possible to affect the stress level. anws, i feel that this is just a rough gauge of your stress scores. so ppl, take care and be optimistic to the stress events and learn some strategies to cope with your stress! i should try to do tt too!

i want a fufilling hols spent

SAT i'll be having my exam, and YES i know i shld be studying hard now since thr's jus 1 more day left but my brain is protesting... so i tut of having a short break to surf net and stuff.. and updating my blog!

for e past 3 days i'd been mugging e whole day in je's lib and i am soooo grateful tt ting accompanied me if not i'll be terribly bored! really cannot imagine myself studying alone in the quiet space thr. not to mention of my gregarious nature hehe.

i have alrd been thinking how to spent my hols away when my mind drifted off to day dreaming halfway thru mugging haha. it's either i'd be working my ass off, or i'd be hanging w some friends whom i havent meet up with a loooong time. miss them so!

AND.. i wana party! my break from clubbing is long enough to for me sustain... 2 mths! i want to shake shake dance dance drink drink la! and yeah... shake e stress away. WOOOTS.

wish me gd luck for sat's exam yo!

dejavu?

beng said he dreamt tt my blog layout changed and according to his dream, my tagboard changed from left to right side of the blog.

so beng, does this seems like dejavu to you? =X

我爱他

我爱他 by 丁当 (song in 下一站，幸福)

他的轻狂留在 某一节车厢
地下铁里的风 比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开 爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖 越多的空白
该怎么去爱

如果还有遗憾是分手那天

我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来

若那一刻重来 我不哭

让他知道我可以 很好

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Love this song loads!!!!!! gosh a must-sing-song at kbox!

reincarnation eh?

deleted previous post accidentally when i wanted to edit it... zzzz!
hmm satisfied with this new layout... but i'm wondering shld i insert a tagboard at the side bar like before since ppl who visited my blog are able to comment on my posts now? mayb u guys cld share ur opinions.. :)

anws.. was researching on this news about serial killer Ted Bundy back at the 1980's for my assignment when i stumbled across this photo. it immediately struck me of the close resemblance of one of the starlet in gossip girls.

Leighton Meester from GG

One of the victims of Bundy in his kill spree

look at their eyes and lips.... i find that them look so alike! well, mayb except for the chin part. so creepy!