NY resolutions

(extracted frm DailyWorldBuzz.com)

Top 10 New Year’s Resolutions

1 Get into shape / go to the gym more

2 Save money

3 Go on a diet

4 Give up smoking

5 Assess work/life balance

5 Learn a new skill

7 Be kinder to myself

8 Give up/ cut alcohol intake

9 Give up / eat less chocolate

10 Clear wardrobe on eBay


Most Broken New Year’s Resolutions

1 Give up smoking

2 Get into shape / go to the gym more

3 Clear wardrobe on eBay

4 Be kinder to myself

5 To go on a diet / Give up or eat less chocolate

6 Learn a new skill

7 To give something back to the community

8 Give up or cut alcohol intake / Join or maintain my Twitter/Facebook/Blog

9 Assess work/life balance

10 Save money


....................................... so whatz e use of ny resolutions?

emo momo

i dunno y i'm feeling super emotional and depressed, but it's definitely not due to the pms cos it's way over.

like.. when i'm watching dramas or some tv shows and when i heard abt my frens' heart breaking news i feel like crying along with them. or during those late nights when i gt sleepless i feel like dissolving in tears with my pillow, and yet i held my tears back from flowing down my cheeks. what's with me?!??!?!  

mayb i'm trying to be strong for too long. i feel strained.
mayb the year is ending. i feel sad cos i dont think anything is accomplished.
mayb it's the regrets. i dont see opportunities ever materialize in front of me again..
mayb.........................................

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 it's all of the mayb's.


if u ask me what's my new year resolutions, i have loads of them.
but i'm afraid tt if i list them down, none of them comes true again.
jus like this yr
u wana know? i will list them out here just for fun, but i wont take them to heart seriously.
cos.................................................... i.hate.dissapointments.

talk abt club

suppose to join my classmates @ zouk tonite but as usual, i'm broke.. plus i wanna save e $$ for new yr countdown, which is also ann's bdae countdown and her bdae celebration!

xmas eve night was spent unsatisfactorily ): spent hours to queue at butter fac and we cldnt get into the Bump room, which plays all the hip hop n rnb music. full house they say, which honestly, is quite expected. so we were onli allowed in the Fash room, the music sucks to the core. and thn we went hm after tt. WAD A LOUSY NIGHT.............!!!!!!!!!

taken while queueing

Rebel, where we intentionally plan to go but didnt go cos the entry fee's too ex, was packed tt night too, tt's wad i heard so. if not, we'll be spending out night thr and probably be having the fun of our life! the 1st time i went thr, it didnt leave me a gd impression cos e music wasnt tt gd tt night and the crowd was a bit crazy.

the 2nd time i went thr, the music was sooooo good tt i cld jus get high without the effects of alcohol and dance till 5am. the crowd thr contains mostly guys (tt's wad's not so impt), but the THING is, thr r quite a number of hot guys yo!! hahaha. i hope i dont sound like some despo bitch. it's just that normally when i go club i dont really look at guys. but tt night thr were enough to lay my eyes on!

however we nd to defense ourselves a lot against e guys too, and tt place is really ve small. and the bartender is a rude slacker. i guess that's all for the drawbacks? the entry fee is $20 w 2 free drinks, comparable to e price @ dblo cos at OO it's $15 for e entry fee but no free drinks provided. no cheapo alcohol though, sian. will go down to OO 1 last time for the cheap alcohol b4 it closes down on 2 Jan!! i wana drink till gao gao!

have no regrets

deleted previous post cos i was thinking over the mistakes i made.. and i pondered abt it so often that it makes me wonder how would i face the decision again if i wld given a chance.
will i repeat the same mistake again?
will i open the door and welcome them, to prove myself wrong?
or will i just walk away from all of these and pretend to be oblivious abt it?

my ans to tt now is to prove myself wrong, give myself and others a chance, so that i will not regret like today.

i always thought that to be fair to others, i made myself known that thr's always a somebody in my mind, so that at least i'm being clear to them that i'm not gonna cheat ppl's feelings or to pretend like as if i am interested. i didnt know until today that by doing so is just too naive and rational to distinct my feelings or rather choices. i dunno how u wld define this correct or wrong, it is just how u perceive it as. to me, i regretted, so i deemed it as a mistake. god knows what will happen if i accept; mayb i'll be happier now or mayb not. at least, there's no regrets.

now tt i've wasted enough time, i need to move on................................

and i hope it's not too late to realize that

on a brighter note, my fren went to US las vegas's disneyland during hols (envy right? sigh) and i requested her to buy me Victoria's Secret body spray from thr cos it's sold cheaper. (if i'm working now i'd probably ask her to get me some Coach purses or bags back, but too bad i'm not!!) she was unsure which flavor of e body spray i want so she bought a collection of flowery VC body sprays back!!!!

loves!!!!
i totally love flowery scent :) thanks liana!!

and so i always spray on myself, with my own anna sui perfume, before i went out. it just feels so gd to begin ur day with great fragance on ur body!!! =D

on top of that, xmas exchange this year has been quite fufilling :) i'm so grateful for all the gifts (esp the ones which they spent lotsa time on) the sincerity is deeply appreciated! i hope they like my gifts too!!

early sleep, sweet dreams

jus came back from buying xmas prezzie!


i am soooooooooo freaking tired but i need to read finish a chapter of my textbook before i go to sleep. taking a small break now before i continue to read again sigh..
 
sch started off w a ve tight and busy schedules: lessons from monday to sat (like wtf! but luckily i onli had 1 sat left), quizzes and homeworks everyday.. busy is good but it jus worries me that i aint keeping up with the class. i felt like there's too much information thrown to me and i am expected to learn sooooo many stuff within such short period. and the prpblem is, i got no time to double my efforts even. GOSH.
 
i will retun to update about my clubbing night at Rebel (it was fun!) when i have e time again.
till then, toodles!

procrastinate.OVER.

i hate to think of tml.
cos classes begin tml.

so i had been dragging my time to do a list of things i ought to do but when sch reopens, but i MUST stop this procrastination and get my brain juice flowing. OH before i do tt i must sweep off the dust or moulds or wadever that grows on my brain over this period of time when it actually malfunctions.

....................... y do i feel like it's a dooms-day tml?

ARGGhhhHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

new look ;)

snipped away my long hair today!!!!
my hair used to look like this:

notice the thin hair ends. ugly! and oso my side parting heh. (omg i realized tt my frills looked like a bib -_-)

now my hair looks like this!

i started playing w my hair thn, cos v excited with new hair style la. lols

trying to act cute here =X

hair all tied back to pony tail.

yeah a different new look for me. =D

i was in a shock when i saw my reflection at the salon earlier on. sooooo not used to it! i feel as tho another girl was looking back at me but it's ME. yeah well, after sometime i feel ok but not really adapt to it yet. ann said i look younger n cuter. yes cuter. CUTE is nv in my dictionary ok. i nv try to act cute in my 22 yrs of life. cant believe i'm trying it now at age 22. wth.

endure w me la =P i know some frens out thr cannot tolerate cute-ness esp by me but it's like i myself oso cannot tahan lorh.

jus wanna play a cute-ness for a while can HAHA.

what's more to suffice the stress on me.

"Holy cow!!" when i realized that i really lost track of time, the after effect when i spent most of my holidays at home that i wasn't aware of the date and day at all.

my sch reopens on 11 Dec, and just ytd i realized that the day actually starts on this fri. panic panic panic. so many things to be done are yet to be carried out, and my mind still stays rooted for the holiday mood that i wasnt prepared to go sch @ all. i feel like a kid dreading for sch reopen!!

to make it worse, the course materials prepared for us b4 lessons begin feels like a time-setting bomb, only in this scenario it is a day-setting bomb cos as each day nears fri, the stress and anxiety builds higher n higher. i read through it and i cld feel the horror seeping through. dont wanna go into details cos the more i describe it the more worriment i get. so 2 'd's to describe this module (Research and Methodology) i'm having next: Difficult and Demanding. =X

another perturbing issue is abt financial.
but shall end this subject here cos even though i let it known, i dont wanna talk more abt it.
i have ppl ard me telling me that they're experiencing e same thing but i really couldnt see it on em.
it's even more frustrating when some of them dont understand my situation at all. zzzzzzzzzz.

lalala

a boring post here. read if u feel obliged to :X

i think i'm getting sick after e trip frm hortpark (canopy walk) ytd + the night movie + the sleepover @ my hse with angelis and ann. feeling drowsy even though i slept and my nose is like a running tap now.

my first visit with angelis n ann to the hortpark is nothing much. walked ard.. saw a few interesting things and picturesque spots. we proceeded to the canopy walk after that even though we were a bit tired alrd, and thn rest at another park (pss i forgot e name of it). took a couple of unglam + funny photos thr and we return back to hortpark again. mid-way walking back, it started to rain and all 3 of us had to take shelter under my little umbrella haha.

we went hm to rest b4 catching e movie at night. New Moon yeah. it's nt bad la, but thn a bit confusing if you yet read e book cos tt's what i experienced. ann said thy left out a lot of parts. oh btw, ann was super excited abt watching new moon lorh. she was also making a lot of sounds during e movie! like all the squeals, gasps etc. noisy! haha.

after the movie we get gg to my hse cos they're having a sleepver @ my hse!!!! whooopy!!
i made fondue for them... catch movies.. as usual we make jokes and gossip all tt.. it was fun :) a pity my rm is a bit cramp due to my queen sized bed la. shall do it again yo!!

Birthday Celebration for 老猴

a small surprise for her after our night @ dblo haha!

cldnt light up the candles cos there are fans everywhr. she's supposed to eat it too but she said she was too full so it was discarded aft tt. nvm! there's more bananas to come in her future bdaes!

our plans to sabo jiana for the celebration of her bdae were thwarted. lucky for her!!

#1 to make her drunk cos we nv see her got wasted before.

she said she laosai earlier on so we were being easy on her. but beelye got high and crazy that she kept forcing the alcohol down jiana's throat. haha. here's e evidence of her being helpless and exasperated:

haha! she was referring to beelye, telling me that the lady beside her crazy alrd.

thn she kept pointing at her head mouthing the words, "siao alrdy siao alrdy.." HAHA!

this is the drink bee lye ordered for her:

gosh. they asked me to help jiana drink finish but i drank a sip and i buay tahan alrd. so strong!!! and it doesnt taste good either. poor jiana has to drink finish. luckily i'm nt e bdae girl if not i think by the end of the night i will be unconscious!

#2 make her to play some games and forfeits

which we didnt carry out tt night too. anws she not sporty enough oso. so the rest of the night we dance and drink, drink and dance................. and kanna slaps from her! apparantly when she gt a bit drunk she becomes so violent can. she should be the one getting slaps by us lorh!!!!!! zzzzzz.

happy birthday to lao gao!!

Colorgenics Personality test

try it here: http://colorgenicstest.com/

You are in a state of constant expectation and want interesting and exciting things to happen to you. But in fact, you are a 'Walter Mitty' at times - a dreamer - over-imaginative and often given to fantasy or day-dreaming. There is nothing wrong in 'dreaming' - how boring life would be if one just followed the doctrines of everyday life - but one must not continue leading a life of continuous fantasy. You need to face reality in spite of all its possible shortcomings.


You are finding the present situation extremely demanding and you're having difficulty coping with it. A great deal of strain is involved and you would really like everyone and everything to leave you alone for a while, just so that you can put everything into perspective.

Your involvements seldom measure up to your high emotional expectations and your 'needs' to be 'loved' and 'cared for' have in the past often led to extreme disappointment. But a change is in the wind - make a firm decision to start anew. Just 'think' it..and it will happen.

You are feeling trapped by the situation as it stands at this time and what is more, you feel powerless to remedy it. You are stressful, angry and disgruntled. You feel that everything that you try to do to change the situation is thwarted and your hopes and aspirations all seem to be receding into the ever distant future. You have reached the state where you now doubt whether your dreams will ever be achieved and this is not only causing mental stress but heartache. You need to get away from it all - you need to have time to think, to recuperate, to be able to make your own decisions.

You don't like conflict and you endeavour to avoid criticism. You want to do your own thing and to be able to decide what is right for you. You have considerable personable charm - and this is used with considerable effect on those that keep your company.

海派甜心

I'm watching this show now!!!

seriously, u guys shld watch this. frigging hilirious!!!!! 1st time i watched taiwanese drama i can laugh non-stop lorh. xiao zhu's image in the show is super geek but at the same time uber idiotic and funny.

haha. super idiotic!

for those who still dunno abt this website, u can watch it at http://www.funshion.com/. they have all the latest dramas, movies and stuff. u nd to download the software for free to watch them but other than that, it's really hassle-free and easy to use. the download progress is pretty fast too! :)

a reunion w colleagues

i'm writing this while waiting for yiting.. zzzzz. i'm supposed to go her hse after she bathe. but she's taking a loooooong time!

had our bbq session held @ my fren's fren condo beside parkway parade. the experience as compared to bbq @ east coast is much more comfy haha!

anws, didnt expect tt it'll be fun during e bbq on sat with my ex-colleagues :) i thought i will be a bit left out, after all, it's been quite sometime since i last gather with em together and i missed a lot of inside jokes and the latest gossips in office. but surprsingly, they didnt chat abt the "office" topic much (cos usually they wld) and fortunately my frequency is capable enough to keep up with their craps. hehe.

the bbq food, which one of them prepared herself, is awesome! =D kind of admire her capability to prepare most of the food herself: satays, chicken wings, stingrays, prawns etc. cos i'm usually too lazy to do that haha. thumbs up! oh btw, this bbq tastes much better than my poly gathering bbq @ east coast. and even cheaper lorhs. wth.

i'm searching for more photos on food but i can only find prawn. we seasoned it with sambal chilli, chilli padi.. er.. wadever chilli sauce we have we mixed it together and marinate it la. the results as u can imgained is SPICY!!! but it taste good!! yum. then alex tried to marinate it with martell and the chillis haha. i didnt eat it cos they said it's ve ve spicy, but it seems like martell is wasted cos they cldnt taste any alcohol @ all.

kelvin brought along his martell (heard tt it's preciously kept for i think 2 decades?) so good of him to share it with us haha. thn drank a lil while we were eating our bbq. so before we get e ball rolling for the drinking game, a group of us sepearates frm the rest to walk ard the condo cos we were too full. as usual, the camwhore begins.

 me, lena, joreen, kelvin, meizhen

the pool!!!!!!!!! i wished i had my swimming costume with me!!

alex, meizhen's bf and her.

alrite, here comes the funny part. i invited kelvin along to do the jumping shots w me thn he said i siao.

LOOK WHO'S CRAZIER LARH!!!! lol.

after the drinking game we went to kelvin's hse for more games lol. but i was at my limit alrd, so i just drank a little. before we went hm we browse through kelvin's childhood photos, and we were laughing at his ah boy looks: centre parting, thn white white skinny skinny, and most importantly the boy in the albums looks totally different from how he looks now. he was so much handsome when he was a boy larh. haha! ok la... kidding =P

right now, i feel like eating bbq again leh. i wanna more chilli prawns!!!

my frens went for dim sum buffet on monday.
and i miss it........ :(


i posted my status as "craving for alcohol now" in fb. but i didnt drink any la.
if drinking alcohol cld instantly treats my depressed mode now, it's only for a while. the next morning i wake up i'll feel worse. sigh.

gotta face it anyway..

my world now is all messed up.
Damn Shit.

job search in vain zzzz.

had a small chat with my father just now to clear the misunderstandings. like what ting said, it's better to talk when both parties had cool down.

i realised my mistake later too, after thinking abt it e whole day.

now the most important thing to do is to find myself a part time job, which i had been doing so for days.
seriously, i dont understand. what issit so fussy abt a part time job that they nd to filter me out?!?! it's just a part time job ma, and i have working experience!!! so many days after a resume been sent to so many companies and i still didnt get a reply back. this is so much harder than finding a full time job lorh... at least i got asked for interviews back thn.

or issit jus my luck?

.......................... i wont give up finding jobs. humph!

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Accusations

looks my thoughtfulness was not appreciated, it was neglected and perceived as a foolhardy decision that causes e whole family havoc.

i thought i had been doing the right thing all along. it was against my principle to ask money from parents, and i dont like the feeling of doing so. i fed on myself if possible, unless i'm by the stress of financially exhausted, i ask for pocket money from them. i have been working for a yr before, but that doesnt mean i can support myself yet since i spent so much on some fees (educational n medical) and spending from my account feels like squeezing out on what's left there. even though i'm allowed to ask for pocket money, i nv ask for it only thn my father will hand the money to me when he rmbs it. and since i know that our family were nt v wealthy and had a lot of debts to settle, i feel so abash if i rch out my hand for money.

that leads to why i spent my 1000k to 2000k from my savings to do something important w/o informing my father, and thn now tt i told him i gt reprimanded for being unthoughtful and hot-headed.

my permission was granted frm my mother when she told me that she will not help me to pay for it since she has alrd settle for my sch fees. that i understand, and so i volunteer to fix this myself. i didnt want to bother my father and add on his burden, so i didnt tell him anything at all. little did i know that the fees to pay r more to come, that i'm resorted to ask the money from parents.

smthg to pay for health medical fees r unavoidable. as much as i dont wana pay, i still must bear the expenses.

now, am i wrong in this?!

somehow i dunno why, things that i did out of goodwill only turns out to be wrongdoings deemed by my parents, and i'm to be blamed for it.

and somehow i dont understand y some ppl r effortlessly filthy rich.



written with teardrops.

You and Me could write a Bad Romance

I'm loving this song so much!!!!!

Bad Romance - Lady GaGa

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your ugly
I want your disease
I want your everything
As long as it's free
I want your love(Love-love-love I want your love)

I want your drama
The touch of your hand
I want your leather-studded kiss in the sand
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love(Love-love-love I want your love)

I want your loving and I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance(Oh-oh-oh--oh-oooh! )
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

I want your horror
I want your design
'Cause you're a criminal
As long as your mine
I want your love(Love-love-love I want your love-uuhh)

I want your psycho
Your vertigo stick
Want you in my rear window
Baby your sick
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love(Love-love-love I want your love)

Je veux ton amour
Et je veux ta revanche
J'adore l'amour
I don't wanna be friends Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
I don't wanna be friends(Caught in a bad romance)
I don't wanna be friends Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Want your bad romance(Caught in a bad romance)
Want your bad romance!

working tml!!! finallyyyyyyyyyyyy.


but this job jus lasts me for 3 days. admin assistant @ NUS. not the school NUS, but the Lee Kuan Yew School Of Public Policy. errrs a bit confusing la, i didnt know such school existed. anws it's located near the botanic garden. so it must be quite near to town :)

for some reasons i kept searching for part time office jobs instead of retails, sales or services. i guess it's part of my attachment for my previous company CPF haha. i really enjoyed my period working there (well, excluding some parts of office political issues), sometimes i regretted my resignation, whilst a lot of others inside there preferred my situation. ok la..... the grass is always greener on the other side. when i was working thr i cant wait to quit. but now i quitted i regretted my decision. (wth?)

anws. i had a loooot of free time now bcos i'm studying n becos i have plenty of holidays. it feels so diff frm singapore schools when they atteneded classes for a long period but had only a short break haha. that is y i need a part time job to spend my hols away!!!

n i nd to earn $$$ oso! BROKE! =(

Leonid meteor showers!

There'll be Leonid meteor showers appearing on next morning!! in chinese: 狮子座流星雨 i think. I'm a Leo! and i wanna watch meteor showers!!



heard tt the meteor showers will be visible throughout asia, indonesia and china being the best location. the best place to watch will be away from urban areas, cos the meteors will be drowned by the local lights, and the ideal time will be from 1am to dawn.. so even though chances of witnessing the metoer shower is slim in sg, i will still keep my eyes on the sky to catch any slightest glimpse of a meteor shower haha.

i never seen a meteor shower b4!!! i rmb my ex-bf told me he saw it @ pulau ubin, my sis also told me she saw it at home while she was staring blankly outside.. lucky them lorh!!!!! i oso wan!!

past events to update!

Those who saw my fb photos wld hav know where i've been to the the past month. so, i wanna hv a brief descrpition of the events here (:

Past event #1:

Cousin's wedding =D

the most impt thing about attending weddings is how dazzling u want to look. whether u r the newly weds's friends, family, colleagues, acquaintance etc, u wouldnt want to miss a bit of attention there. it also depends on how you treat this kinda matter. some ppl pick their best outfit frm their wardrobe, some ppl re-wear the same outfit from their last wedding dinner, or some would just spend on buying another best outfit.

i've nv been to a proper wedding dinner b4, so i dont have an appropriate dress in my wardrobe to wear even tho i do have nice dresses. but this doesnt make me guilty for buying a dress specially for a dinner... right? >.<>

anws missed out the fun part of a wedding earlier in the morning. i donno what's tt tradition called, u all know abt setting obstacles for the bridegroom b4 he can pass through the door to see the bride rite? yeah. when tt happened, i'm jus awake haha. i onli witness e tea ceremony, and seriously, it's a bit of messy -_- but nvm. we'll jus skip tt part.

my cousin's wedding dinner held at hyatt hotel was awesome. the food's great, and for unknown reasons my mum kept shoving e red wine to me. .... duh. also had a bit of like reunion with my family too, it's been some time we had fun tog as a family. wanted to take pics with my camera but i didnt know both of my batteries r alrd dead zzzzzz. so i took w my hp cam.

Evelyn Tan, my cousin.

the newly weds :) she's so pretty tt day!

my dearest nai nai

my closest cousin

all the cousins!

after dinner my cousins started to cam whore haha. i can only say tt our family indeed is dramatical.

look at my father.

look at my uncle. haha. he thinks he's a principal there. @_@

it's a nice evening spent (: witnessing my cousin's wedding dinner makes me think of my future too. hmm... will i get married? when will it be? mayb i will not get married at all? haha. but hey, i dont even have a boyfriend yet k. mayb in the end there isnt any good guys left for me to be with cos thr r more n more bad guys!! agree?

next i wanna post on our JB trip and my classmate's bdae!

OH YAY

EXAM OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!

could not have say anymore but negligence for this blog just by the looks of it haha. yeah yeah.. i do hav stuff to write on but i'm jus too busy over my assignments and preparation for my exam and, yea, too busy slacking (which means i'm jus plain lazy lar) opps haha.

btw. i'm still having a bit of insomnia. rushing through assignments throughout the day still keeps me awake in my sleep, and it's like i only get to sleep some moment after the dawn breaks in. seriously, what happened to me?!?!! i used to sleep b4 11pm and wakes up at 10am. now, i miss my breakfast and only wakes up at 12pm to 1pm. damn.... this is so unhealthy!


but peeps, another piece of good news here. it might not be for u anws, it's for myself.
I haven't been clubbing for like a month!!! weeee *applauds to myself haha. =) any encouragements frm u guys? =P

Insomnia?

Not that serious la.

but i hav been sleeping later and later recently.. ever since sch started.
it's like i feel exhausted alrd but i cant get myself to sleep even tho i have been lying on the bed for hours. guess there r too much activities going on in my brain system that doesnt want to take a break.

like now, after writing the previous post, i feel emo again and it sorta ignite the sparks to start the brain engine running, sending me lotsa emotions from the lost images, but still captured in my memory. altogether it's the misses, tt stop me from getting to bed early.

stupid emotions, i want to forget!!!!!!!

as tho it's in the routine, i feel tt it's time to force myself to lie on the bed and struggle to fight against emotions so that i could get my beauty slp......

i hope i cld fall asleep almost immediately this time..

cant get u off my head

I miss u so..



I wanna see u, but on the other hand I'm so afraid to meet u.



I played the scenes so often in my head; I should have stop doing so but I just cant control myself.



I kept thinking of u,



but i bet u must be living ur life w/o my image haunting ur soul.....



.......... which i should have done so. ):

SKINNY IS NOT PRETTY

attended poly gathering last sat @ east coast n the 1st thing my classmates told me is,

i'm getting skinnier!!!!

WTH! :( :( T_T

yea it's not like i didnt noticed tt myself. but it jus hurts me to hav somebody telling me e fact. i want my baby fats back!!!

i looked thru photos which were taken in the past, hmm ard 3 to 4 years back? and i compared the phtos taken now.. i looked so much skinnier, older, and uglier!!! GOSH!!!! u can see the evolution @ e pics below:

this was taken when i was 18 yrs old! chubby face!!

hmm this was taken when i was 19? i rmb is poly yr 2.

taken @ ann's 20th bdae.

my 21st bdae. face sharper! loss of fats on my cheeks!

when i entered CPF

now 22 yrs old. chin sharper, face skinnier and longer. UGGHHH!!!

SOBS. as if this is not bad enough, my face complexion worsens too. guess it's probably when i start applying products on my face wanting to make it better but fffffff, what i got is the opposite effect! grrrrrr.......

so yeah, i'm pretty upset about it even tho some of u here do not see the point, cos u might be thinking being skinny is a gd thing, BUT for me it is NOT.
NOT!


I WAN TO GAIN FATS!!!!!!!!!

The fists tt couldnt release

everytime i think back, it's like a dream come true.
a sweet dream that slips in when u fall unconsciously into a nap, and when you woke up, you realized that it follows you for an agonizing period of time.
or i could describe it like a dream u woke up from too abruptly, leaving a mysterious trail of ending.

however, there is no dream i cld escaped from; it is the reality. i'm in this vicious cycle, and i have been in a while that i gotta stop this myself. everytime i stepped in i feel so silly and dumb, but i was happy back then, however my happiness always dont last. i wondered y so often, y issit tt i always got into this shit and how many times am i capable to get myself out again. y issit tt this kinda thing always happened to me, y this y that. i jus dont understand.

i'm so tired from thinking and understanding.
i jus dont wanna care anymore.......................................




but the fists wldnt release.

rude encounter

I have so much to update on, but i wanna post this 1st cos this is the shortest one to blog on.


ting and i went shopping at far east and we drop by one korean shop @ 4th storey (or 3rd, i forgot). looks kind of inviting and attractive at the front of the shop, not to mention expensive. refer to the pic below:

we were looking ard and saw a row of pretty hairbands displayed on a small table. hmm so tempting to try on to see how it looks on our faces so we pick em up and put it on our heads. then this lady boss barks at us across the shop, "EH NO TRYING OF HAIRBANDS HOR!"

i turn ard and look innocently at her and say, "OH. no trying ah?" thn ting and i turn our heels and i said "WTH" loudly enough for her to hear. damn bitch. as we walked our way out ting was saying if we cannot try, then how do we know whether it looks nice on us a not??? stupid lady! so what if they costs $30++ each?!! if she dont wan ppl to try, she shld be clever enough to at least put up a sign "PLS DO NOT TRY ON" in front of the displayed hair bands right?! so old alr still no manners!!

in the end i learnt tt i'm not e onli one who experienced this attitude from her. cos turns out tt one of my fren ever got barked at when she visited this shop. if she continues her lousy service attitude thn god knows how long can she survive thr. or mayb she jus depends her sales on ppl who looks rich enough to afford the stuff thr.

in conclusion, the message tt i wanna bring across is: dont ever patronise this shop or even step a foot in. ur mood might jus get affected aft visiting this shop.
however, those who knew me well enough wld know tt my real intention is well, to tarnish the reputation and prevent more ppl from helping to increase e sales...

lol

Thousand Miles ♥

Making our way downtown~ =P


it's fridayyyyy

and beng and i fetched angelis at e mrt stn near her workplace bcos she was late. AGAIN. but kind of understand her situation at work; poor her got called back to office even tho she applied leave -_-

btw. we made wonderful plans on fri nite :D

lis cld drive us to east coast for seafood dinner, and thn drives us to where ever we wanna go!! it's soooo COOL, this is my 1st time out in my fren's car the whole night! and we can access to places where we seldom cld go.. AWESOME!!!!


dropped by at angelis's hse to pick up her car.. and thn off we go! lis was apparently nervous cos it's her 1st time driving her frens out tt far, but otherwise the rest of us were in glee. she made a few driving blunders but it was ok la, at least ah beng was there to guide her along heh.

rched east coast and i recommend them a seafood stall there, the food is CHEAP n DELICIOUS. beng took a pic of e stall so if u happened to recognise it, do try their seafood. thumbs up!!!

feels great to indulge in heavenly good but super spicy seafood~! yummilicious ;P too bad for pei wen tho. she cant tahan spicy food!!

aft our scrumptious dinner we strolled along e east coast beach for a while to hav our food digested cos we were all so full!! cam whore thr as usual and we went back to e car for our next destination:

Changi Village

i've heard about the transexuals there for a loooooong time but nv been thr to witness them. now it's e chance!!!! haha. we were so anticipated laa!

BUT BUT. 1st i wanna divulge angelis's anecdote! for some of you who know, the transexuals r stationed ard a small car park inside, which is just beside a bus interchange. so it's like there're 2 lanes turning into e car park and bus interchange from the main road. wad i wanna say is, kuku angelis turned into the 1st lane which heads into the bus interchange la!!!! FREAKING FUNNY CAN! and there was one bus following our car behind! i bet the bus drivers must be laughing up their sleeves! haha. i laughed till my cheeks hurts!

anws. our car had to made ard 3 rounds ard the car park so tt we can see em clearer. GOSH. THEY'RE SO PRETTY AND THEIR BODIES R SO GORGEOUS!!!! like i was so awed cos some of em looked like genuine women. and they were all dressed ve skimpily. wa lau. so tempted to be like them (as in, plastic surgery) haha.

a moment ltr, more transexuals showed up and our car happened to pass by one of em, whose boobs r humongous, with what she's wearing a dress where only two piece of cloth covering e nipple part. jus as our car passed by, the breeze parted the cloth and his/her skin, revealing his/her nipple!! well, angelis saw tt haha. but beng and pei wen, who were sitting @ e back of e car, were complaining (esp beng) cos they totally missed tt part. sorry~ LOL

we headed down to airport thn cos we wanted to catch e airplane. WAH. sounds like we're really gonna board the plane but no la, jus wanna enjoy the view and watch the planes depart.. but too bad la. the viewing mall was closed @ e moment. so we toured ard terminal 3... the space thr is damn vast and it's interior design is so grand n pretty!!

yeah played a bit thr. thn we got tired and headed hm.. which ard 3am alr! btw, when angelis drived me home she nearly turn into e bus interchange at clementi again. LOL LOL LOL. she jus likes to visit the bus interchange uncles so much.

*Endless Parties*

MY FIRST TIME TO BUTTER FACTORY!!!

meet my classmates at raffles and we headed down to butter fac. was a bit excited laa, cos heard tt it's fun! but when we rch there, which is ard 940pm, i saw the queue and i nearly fainted zzzzz...

SO MANY PPL CAN! the queue was damn loooooong! the queue's like those mini concert, and then u'll see the fans queueing up in a long string.. that's how long it is. moreover it's ladies night so we waited for our turn to go in for like... 2 hrs?? almost there la. a bit mood dampening, cos we're like sweating and feeling sticky all over even before we go in and we had to stand there for hrs. no wonder i heard from em tt u hav to be early. hell.....

but this is the price to pay for... cos it's fun fun FUN!!!

it's onli like near to 12am but the music was alr good. the whole nite they were playing the rnb music and you can realli sweat it out there, dance like u nv dance b4! still, nv to hit on the danceflr cos it's freaking packed. like, body to body can. and the queue for drinks are oso freaking loooong. OMG. one thing i noticed abt butter fac is tt the queues there are always LONG. *faint

photos:

all the gals!

peeps!

something v.v.v. funny happened in btw. one indian guy suddenly join our grp and the guys were like protecting us frm him. then, the next thing we know, 2 of my guy frens started dancing w him and grinding him la!!!!! GROSS! haha! super funny can, i laughed until my cheeks hurts.

ANWS.
lotsa parties gg on this wk. faints.. jux attended my fren's sis's fren (complicated la) bdae at marina country club on friday. then tue k box with my ex colleagues. then, on this wed or next wed, clubbing again cos it's my classmates bdae. and then on sat attending a party at sentosa chalet, and clubbing aft tt. GOSH.......

and i still havent got a job.

Photoshooting.. to do it or not???

i cant believe it when one professional photographer came to me and ask me to try photoshooting for him!

Devine Vaughn: have u model for shoots b4? :)
Me: err yes but onli for my cousin's blogshop
Devine Vaughn: oooh okies.. but is it fun? :) haha... would u b keen to try a more exciting shoot then? :)

me: hmmm but i dont think i look great in photo shooting
Devine Vaughn: depends on the photographer. :)
u r the cute girl in white in ur dp? hmm.. well, i like ur looks. :)

me: well.. u nvr see my actual looks
Devine Vaughn: well, i dun really care about real looks as long as u look good on photos. haha

me: hmmm sorry but i still hav doubts for my capability. not confident enough haha. hmm can u give me time to think?
Devine Vaughn: of cos. u can check out my photographer profile here: http://www.modelmayhem.com/808685

i took a look at the website, and then i realized that he only accepts bikini and/or lingerie themes! GOSH. the 1st thing tt comes into my mind is, he is looking for the WRONG person. perhaps some of u may know, bee lye was his model before for the Silhouette series of photos. yeah, so here i trust his professionalism, but i dont trust mine. it's great that u can do something exciting or adventurous while u are young, and i will do it if i have a great body. but look at me!! zzzzz

i told him tt i will giv him a reply by fri, while i nd time to consider. sigh.
i think i better give him a reply soon so tt i wont waste his time anymore!

miss the smell of CASH

I'M SO BORED...

and POOR!!!!

oh pls i need to earn some cash, and do something instead of idling at hm w nothing to do!

ever since i left the company and started schooling, one significant thing tt i missed so much is the cash rolling into my account each mth. zzzzzz. and now i had to rely on pocket money, which doesnt sounds great at all to me, esp i dont like e feeling of rching out my hand from my parents who had alr spent a bomb on my sch fees.

apart frm tt, i still cant adapt to my new environment. this kinda environment is very new to me.. and i'm ve uncomfortable w tt. sigh. feel like forcing myself to sch! ...... i'll explain more on this next time.


now, all i need is CASHHHHH!!! $$$$$$$$$ LOBANGS.. ANYONE?????!

Changed my blogskin ;)

I was too bored at home and i changed my blogskin!!!
NICE????

dont be fooled by the sweet layout of the blog.. i'm not very a sweet kinda gal except to my bf hahaahaha... which in this case, sadly, i dont have.

anws ppl, pls feedback to me if u find any shortcomings on this skin.. THANKSIE!!!

EXAM OVERRRRR!!

ok my exam's finally over!!!

i told my frens tt my exam's coming and everyone were like, "wow!". yeah i know. i'd only started sch not long before and had only went through 9 lessons and POM!! here comes the exam. so was quite stressed yah.

anw i dunno how well i can fare for it, cos i jus wrote wadever i know on the exam paper and the rest just hand over my results to fate and luck haha!

watched "BRUNO" and clubbed with my frens at zouk over the past 2 wks of break i had and yep, for the rest of the days i'm studying. BRUNO is a super sicko gay show, nearly puked my pop corns out while watching it but LOL was heard in the whole theatre haha!

i laughed when i saw this photo haha. his adopted african kid "Audrey" in the show

the actor starring in the show: Sacha Baron Cohen. this pic so man la!!

last sat went zouk with my ex-colleagues and sueann, then meet up with daniel and his frens. was not high at all, and the music sucks. so much as i got tired of dbl o, i think that it is still better than zouk, or mayb the music wasnt nice on tt night onli. next club to try is butter fac.. hope it's good like i've heard so!!

will upload e pics taken tt night next time as camera is with my sis. she went to taiwan for 9 days!!!!! UUUUGHH!!! i oso wanna go!!! =(

2 weeks left.

onli a few more days to consider..........

anws, i've got my study break for my exam dued 2 weeks later, and i've got a holly long questions of post assignment to do during these 2 weeks too. havent start revising or did the assignment yet, dont feel like doing until tml. my break for myself is onli today, and for the rest of the days i'd be giving myself targets on the assignment and the revision. hope it'll be fine..

guys, i still can go out at night, it's not like i'm confined to my studying. so jio me out ok... bcos i'd be damn bored.......

was looking through the blog shops and got tempted by these:


nice? i'm thinking whether to buy them down or not....

i still misses.

Pics I promised.

wth i've got no photoshop to use to do my phtos..

had uploaded them here so enjoy!

hui ling (she was actually prooving us her double chins haha!!)

silly mousey and mei zhen

hui ling and mei zhen

mei zhen, hui ling and kelvin.

This pic ve funny la!!! caught mz pushing kelvin's head!! look @ kelvin's expression HAHA!

silly mousey and hui ling.

on rare occasion silly mousey shows the unglam side of her =P

wondering where's mine rite? hahaa. i have onli one reasonable unglam pic cos i was busy taking others......

NAH.

sorry to disappoint u heh.